Here’s a scene from the latter part of a favorite old movie, Roman Holiday, starring Gregory Peck as Joe Bradley, a somewhat jaded reporter stationed in Rome, and a very young Audrey Hepburn as Princess Ann. Ann becomes frustrated with her life as a cosseted princess, and one night while in Rome, she escapes her guardians to see what the “real world” is like. (It’s a great movie; do yourself a favor and put it on your “must see” list.)
As the day and their adventures come to a close (they both ended up falling in a river), Ann begins to recognize a hard truth: that her “holiday” must soon end, and that she must return to her duties as a princess. She begins to understand the fact that real life isn’t only about fun, but about duty. For the first time, she begins to truly… grow up.
Joe enters his apartment, takes off his jacket and closes the door. Inside, the radio is on, playing soft piano music. An announcer comes on: “This is the American Hour from Rome, continuing our musical selections”. In the bathroom, Ann gets herself ready, dressed in a robe. Looking in the mirror, she smoothes her hair over. She goes outside, standing beside the closed door. Joe, preparing a drink, greets her with a smile.
JOE [with a laugh] Everything ruined?
ANN. No. They’ll be dry in a minute.
JOE. Suits you - you should always wear my clothes.
ANN. Seems I do [Joe laughs].
JOE [giving a her a glass of wine] I thought a little wine might be good.
ANN. Shall I cook something?
JOE. No kitchen; nothing to cook; I always eat out.
ANN. Do you like that?
JOE. Well, life isn’t always what one likes - [pauses] is it?
ANN. No, it isn’t.
Call of the Wild
Back when I first started working in the engineering business, I was thrilled to finally find myself in what I considered to be a great job. What I mean is, it wasn’t just one I knew would be temporary, like the ones I’d had before. No more flipping burgers, taking movie tickets, or door-to-door sales for me! Nope, I had me a real job!
(Uh, please don’t get me wrong here. What I mean, of course, is a job with a career path that was right for me. As they say in the funny pages, your results may vary.)
I did pretty well for a few years, gradually increasing in skill, experience and relative handsomeness. Occasionally I even had my pick of assignments and enjoyed the pleasurable sensation of being somewhat in demand. (Like most businesses, the engineering field goes through fairly regular boom/bust cycles, and this was during a relatively strong upswing.)
Well, things progressed just fine for about 7 years. But then I got sorta, well, for want of a better term, tired of it. Oh, it wasn’t anything dramatic (no hissy fits, or anything like that); it was mostly little things. Like, I would catch myself staring in the mirror and thinking along the lines of, “Y’know, Bubba; you’re just not enjoying your work like you used to.”
It was a rather distressing thought, I’ll tell ya.
You ever felt that way about what you do? Kinda disconcerting, isn’t it? I mean, there you are, minding your own business and humpin’ along just fine, when suddenly it hits you (sound of dull thud). You suddenly find yourself wondering what the heck you’re doing. It’s sorta like waking up from a deep sleep and not recognizing where you are.
Taking a Holiday
Anyway, rather than get all hot and bothered over it, I decided to take a break from the engineering business and see if there was anything else I’d be inclined to do; to go roamin’, thank you very much.
Although there wasn’t that much money in the bank (well, not of MY money), it was enough to last me for a while, at least. A growing sense of adventure began to fill me with excitement. (Here in Texas, we refer to this sorta thing as gettin’ a wild hair up the, er, fundamental aperture. And I have no doubt whatsoever that you get my drift.)
Yep, this was gonna fun; I could just feel it! Ironically, I didn’t get to roam too far before something landed right on my doorstep, so to speak.
Within a few weeks, a friend of mine heard I was looking for something to do and offered me a job helping him start a printed T-shirt business. He wanted to create a new line of Christian-oriented clothing to sell to Christian Book stores in the area, and needed someone to run the operation.
Not having ever done anything even remotely similar before, I jumped at the chance for a totally new experience. And, to tell you the truth, it actually was fun. My friend purchased the equipment while I made the screens, printed the shirts myself, and essentially took care of the entire manufacturing process.
Not that it was any giant operation, mind you, but it was something productive, and more-or-less (mostly, er, less) paid the bills. (I was still single at the time, so my cost of living was pretty minor, really.)
Anyhoo, I really didn’t think too much about how long it would last, and if there was a future at all in it. I just pretty much lived for the day for a while and dreamed of the places I’d go. Maybe even buy a sailboat and live on it, or something.
Reality Bites Kinda Hard
Then…
Something profound happened (sound of dramatic segue). I sorta, um, met someone (sound of fireworks). Yup; right about that time of my life is when I met the future Mrs. MZM (sound of LOTS of fireworks). And lemme tell ya, Bubba; when we fell in love, it was obvious it was a match made in heaven. I mean, it had to be!
After all, I had pretty much nothing going for me at the time: by now I had practically no money in the bank, I had no “real” job, and in fact had pretty much no career plans at all.
It would have been a kindness to say I was, well, floundering around. Get it? The photo of a flounder? Oh, never mind (sound of groans).
I have to admit, though; the unexpected face-to-face encounter with my future did get me to spend quite a lot of time soul-searching. After all, since I was now expecting to get married and all, I really felt the need to be, you know, at least become sorta responsible, if you know what I mean. It’s sorta like getting’ bitten in the butt by reality… hard!
So I began to think really hard (sound of extra heavy grinding noises), about creating an income that would be sufficient for us to live on. And it didn’t take but a few nanoseconds to realize a couple of very important facts.
First of all (and to be perfectly honest - something we always strive for here at the Zone), I didn’t really have to look all that hard. After admitting the, you know, reality of the situation, I knew there was already a perfectly good source, just sittin’ there waiting for me. (The engineering business was still strong at the time, so I knew getting a job would be easy.)
Second - and this was the hard one to swallow - I had to grow up, face reality, and get back to work. (It meant giving up my wild hair, of course. But in the final analysis, I had to admit it wasn’t all that wild anyway.)
Now, don’t get me wrong; it wasn’t that hard a decision. I mean, by then I was so madly in love I woulda done pretty much anything to win her heart. So giving up on my dream of a free-ranging lives-on-a-boat lifestyle was actually not a decision at all, but a joy. (Besides, isn’t “free-range” a term used to describe chickens at the grocery store?)
Now, at first glance, this rather short and seemingly pointless period of my life had turned out to be pretty much, well, a waste of time. I mean, in the final analysis, I hadn’t really accomplished all that much. There were still lots of things I wanted to try out (and now probably never would). Not to mention I had pretty much emptied the ol’ bank account, too. In fact, my “playtime” had barely made a mark on the world at all.
BUT (and please notice, that’s a BIG ‘but’) on the other hand, the experience did put me face to face with one particular reality we all have to face sooner or later:
Life isn’t always what one likes, is it?
Time to Choose
Yep; it can be a hard reality all right (sound of heartfelt sobbing).
Hey, wait a minute, you say. But what about that ‘You can do it!’ crowd?
No doubt you’ve heard plenty of admonitions (including some from yours truly, even) that if you just apply yourself, you can accomplish, get, or do pretty much anything you want, right? Well, consider this: are we even talking about the same thing?
See, when it comes to making up our minds to, you know, do something grander than usual, the current condition of our own attitude is one of the biggest factors, wouldn’t you agree? So in that context, “change your attitude, change your life” actually makes a lot of sense.
But I’m talkin’ about which way you want to go in life. And most of the time, it’s one of those either/or moments. You know the kind, right? When choosing one direction pretty much eliminates the possibility of ever choosing the other - perhaps forever (sound of terrified scream).
Hey, you don’t just make a decision like that on a whim, ya know.
And, it’s also when those irritating intangibles come into play. You know, silly, inconsequential things like, er, duty, honor, commitment, trust - yeah, those pesky things.
It’s where the rubber meets the road, and the irresistible force meets the immovable object. Where the hole and the donut part ways. (Is that enough metaphors for you? Hey, I’ve got more…) And, it’s when the decision (whatever it happens to be) pretty much changes the nature of your life from then on, and you have to choose who you really are.
So… ever been there?
So here’s you homework for the day. Consider (and answer in the comment box, if you like) the following questions:
Have you ever had to make a choice like that? What are some of the things you always wanted to do, but know now you’ll probably never get around to? Are you regretful with the choices you’ve made, or are you content the path chosen had been good for you? Are there any dreams you still believe you’ll get around to accomplishing one day?
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